Saying Good bye

It's been a year of saying goodbye for me. I went to a funeral today for a dear friend's mother. As I sat singing hymns it struck me that just like teething and potty training and learning to walk we will all experience death. It's the last big milestone we hit. It is comforting to me that I am ready. It is the same feeling I have when I lay in bed with James and stare at his face. I feel intense love and loss. It is hard to give up my control over his growth and change.